You look so fine

I want to break your heart and give you mine

You’re taking me over

It’s so insane

You’ve got me tethered and chained

I hear your name

And I’m falling over

She felt like she was walking for hours, walking in circles. Everywhere she went looked the exact same as the last place she had been, and so far she hadn’t found another person. Cat heard a strange noise behind her, one she hadn’t heard in a while. Footsteps. She spun around to face the noise, her paranoia peaking to a high point. It felt as if the wind was knocked out of her as she saw the silhouette of someone who she only dreamt about seeing again. “.. Jace.” The name fell from her mouth quietly and quickly, as if she had said it a million and one times. Her lips were parted slightly as she tried to remember to breath in, a tendril of hair falling down over her cheek. She gulped and without another thought she ran towards him, determined to not let him vanish before her eyes. She stopped suddenly as she reached him, looking at Jace with an unreadable expression in her eyes. One, two, three, blink. Three slow heartbeats and a blink of her eyes was all it took her to decide what her next action would be, and that’s all it ever did take. Her arms wrapped around his neck at the same time as her body pressed against his as she hugged him as hard as she could, and she finally remembered to breath out. She burrowed her face into the crook of his neck, breathing in the scent of him. She hoped with every fiber of her being that this was real, that he was real. But she didn’t want to wonder if it was fake or real, not right now. So instead she just chose to stay as still as possible, fitting in his arms as if she was built to be there, like a puzzle piece which was finally found. It was relaxing, standing like that, in his arms. It made her feel safer than she ever had before. It felt too good to be true, he felt too good to be true. Cat knew he couldn’t be real, it shouldn’t be possible for anybody or anything to make her feel that.. secure. Which is why, when she blinked her eyes and found herself in her bedroom, she didn’t curse under her breath like usual when dreams turned out to be just dreams. She smiled a tiny bit, just enough for it to count as a smile. She smiled because she knew that eventually, even if it took an eternity, it wouldn’t be a dream. It would be real.

i’m having conflicting emotions, thought you should know

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”..Are.”

I heard her soft, sweet words stinging through my ears, so I waited.

I waited until I could wrap myself in her melody again, I waited so I could be together with her again, to cradle her, to hold her tight.

I’m waiting, Catalina. 

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wtf neigh

“Hi, sweetie”, was the first thing he heard as he pressed TALK on his phone, and the voice surprised him.

“Cat? W-why are you phoning me?” His voice was hushed, as he was whispering to her through the phone, afraid that someone would hear. The rest of his band was asleep, and if they caught him on the phone with Catalina once more they’d never stop bugging him about her.

“Well, I just couldn’t stand being away from you for sooo long.” Just by the sound of her voice he could tell she was pouting, great.

“It’ll only be another week or so, I’ll be back before you know it.” He wasn’t sure who exactly he was trying to convince with that line, but it was probably more him than her.

“Yeah yeah, I’ve only heard that line a million times.” She whined lightly as he scoffed in response, and then stopped breathing for a second, as if a brilliant idea just landed in her head.

“Uh.. Cat? What is it?”

“Since you’re so far away, and I’m so, so lonesome..” Her voice trailed off, leaving the sentence unfinished, but Jace could tell what she was getting at just by the tone of her voice. He knew her well enough by now to know what she was going to suggest.

“… Yeah?”

“Phone sex. We haven’t tried it yet, and I’d just love to cross it off my to-do list with you.”

“Ph-phone sex?” His voice was louder than before and he winced slightly, upset by how surprised he was even though he knew she was going to say it.

“Of course. Now.. hurry up and go hide in the bathroom somewhere. Unless you’d like one of your friends to find you masturbating and talking to me at 3AM, that is.”

It’s odd, because there were two people there that day. One, the girl I had always wanted, but no matter what length I had reached, I could never have. Two, The boy I had wrapped all my love around, who gave me a sense of warmth with the simplest look in his eyes. Out of both of those people, that heartache and love that I felt,

I chose you, Catalina. I saved you, when I could have kept him.

It’s gotta mean something, right?